10:12 PM
yeah i slacked the whole day, stayed at home and did nothing. ate oily food, yeah. eww, im getting really fat. so anyway, i waited for dear's call, want him come cause i miss him. =[ budden he need to go ah ma house. =(( arghs so pekchek. i got scolded by my mum, again. sians. always like that. =/
i look into the mirror and i thought, '
hey bitch, you look horrible lehh. so ugly larh you stop looking. mirror will break. ' ARGHS!! im ugly, really getting uglier and uglier. even my dear said. i repeatly told him im ugly then he said im not liao. i say i dont care when he asked me whether i still want him, then he thought i dont want him anymore. i so scared i almost cried. wahlao, its all because of my hair i know. its sucks big time you know. I SHOULDNT HAVE CUT IT!! im so dumb. arghs!!
IM UGLYIM UGLYIM UGLYIM UGLYIM UGLYIM UGLYIM UGLY
right?
see larh!!
ya im ugly.

i look so much better last time right?
ARGHS!! SLAP MY FACE.
zul said im not ugly, its all in the head and my thinking. =/
yeah right.
im on da phone with my dar, i dont know what to tell him. haiis. why i keep crying larh!! pekchek. x{ i dont want him to leave me, i dont wanna leave him. i dont wanna regret like last time. =((
i wanna die.
who cares?
;i am
afraid